Is it time to commit suicide? What’s worth living for anymore?
October 1st, 2009 | by admin |Both my parents died when I was young. My mother died giving birth to me (I was the third of three children), which left just my father to try and take care of me, my brother, and sister.
When I was three, my brother was working in a wood shop, and slipped, and got his arm stuck in the wood chipper, which proceeded to pull him in completely. Needless to say they had trouble burying him.
When I was 12, my sister was at the ocean with some friends of hers, and they were swimming out in the ocean. A wave came in and pulled her under, thus leading to her eventually drowning, since the force of the wave kept her pinned under water.
By now, it was just my father and I. A couple years after my sister’s death, my dad was to broken to carry on anymore. He took his father’s old gun from WWII, and shot himself in the head. My whole family was dead before I had gotten my license.
But there was one ray of hope in my life, which was a girl named Dan. Her real name was Danielle, but I just called her Dan at any rate. She had been my friend for a long time, when no one else really would be. She was very popular, and dated all of the really popular guys, but she was my best friend, and I hers.
One day in senior year, around spring break, she and her boyfriend were out camping, and then they were drinking as well. She eventually had sex with him, and had gotten pregnant. When she found out she was crushed, and when she told him, he acted like he didn’t even know her.
She came to me about it, and we talked, and then I agreed to help her raise the child (she didn’t want to have an abortion). Nine months later, we were in the hospital room, and looking at her baby. I had never seen Dan so happy and tired in all of my life.
After high school ended, we lived with each other, she did her best to attend a local community college, while I went to the major university that was close by, so we could live together. One day while she and our baby (we named her Alexandria), were driving to the store to pick up some groceries, a drunk driver came speeding through a red light while they were in the intersection.
I had to bury my daughter and wife in the same funeral. It’s been almost two years since the day that they were killed. I’ve been fired, evicted from my house, I live in an apartment in the slums, and drink from sunrise till sunset. I no longer see the point in living, when everything has been taken away from me.
oh my goodness. and i thought i was going through a hard time moving half way across the country away from my friends…
Just dont commit suicide. There is some hope left. Trust in God. Go to your local church. Miracles can happen. You have had to gone through the worst there can possibly be and from your story, you seem like you have been strong. I completly understand if you dont want to take my advice because if I was in your situation I would go crazy. Just stay strong. Try your hardest to live your life. I know you have tried really hard. But you can do it. Jesus did not come to Earth to help the healthy, just like doctors dont cure the healthy, He came to help the sick. Just like doctors help the sick.
Here are some great verses in the Bible:
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6
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"The name of the LORD is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe."
Proverbs 18:10
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"Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called."
1 Timothy 6:12
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… say to those with fearful hearts, "Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you."
Isaiah 35:4
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being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6
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So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10
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Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:27
Go to a couneler. Dont be embarassed to do it either. They can help you tremendously. I had to got to one when I was in the 5th grade, I had horrible anxiety. They work small miracles that can change everything. Just please, dont give up now. God Bless you tremendously.
11 Responses to “Is it time to commit suicide? What’s worth living for anymore?”
By Black Ice on Oct 1, 2009 | Reply
there is only 3 people in my whole family that is alive every one else has commited suicid and that is 3/7 so what do u think there is not a damn thing u will miss on earth but what bout your next life
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By Niveah on Oct 1, 2009 | Reply
tear.
Suicide is never right. There must be a reason why you are still on this planet
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By riki k on Oct 1, 2009 | Reply
Please, don’t kill yourself. You have had tremendous bad luck. But It has absolutley nothing to do with you. Join a local support group in your town. Build a support system. U have had a really hard life, but all those people u have lost wouldn’t want u to give up. You have to be strong for them and for yourself.
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By Jim R on Oct 1, 2009 | Reply
Theres always something to live for man you just have to find something worth holding onto. That other stuff is in the past theres nothing you can do about that now but theres always hope for the future ya you got screwed but thats in the past find a purpose in life and do everything you can to better yourself and to make the world a better place.
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By Tam on Oct 1, 2009 | Reply
I feel for you so much tragedy so sad but suicide is not the answer! we lost our little girl Emily in 97′ she was 2 yrs and 10 months old and the light of our lives…we have struggled everyday and probally will the rest of our lives…but you have been through so much…Please just try to be strong…and live on. If you want to talk just email me.
also there is a group called compassionate friends they helped me alot…try their web site.
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By Denise S on Oct 1, 2009 | Reply
There is never a time for suicide. Suicide is for cowards and people who are so self absorbed that they feel like taking an easy way out. You need to talk to a therapist and need therapy. You don’t need to kill yourself to free yourself from the anguish, you need to learn to love again, starting with yourself. Good Luck and God Bless you..
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By Sarah B on Oct 1, 2009 | Reply
oh my goodness. and i thought i was going through a hard time moving half way across the country away from my friends…
Just dont commit suicide. There is some hope left. Trust in God. Go to your local church. Miracles can happen. You have had to gone through the worst there can possibly be and from your story, you seem like you have been strong. I completly understand if you dont want to take my advice because if I was in your situation I would go crazy. Just stay strong. Try your hardest to live your life. I know you have tried really hard. But you can do it. Jesus did not come to Earth to help the healthy, just like doctors dont cure the healthy, He came to help the sick. Just like doctors help the sick.
Here are some great verses in the Bible:
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6
——————————————————————————–
"The name of the LORD is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe."
Proverbs 18:10
——————————————————————————–
"Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called."
1 Timothy 6:12
——————————————————————————–
… say to those with fearful hearts, "Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you."
Isaiah 35:4
——————————————————————————–
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6
——————————————————————————–
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10
——————————————————————————–
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:27
Go to a couneler. Dont be embarassed to do it either. They can help you tremendously. I had to got to one when I was in the 5th grade, I had horrible anxiety. They work small miracles that can change everything. Just please, dont give up now. God Bless you tremendously.
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By bubbles2483 on Oct 1, 2009 | Reply
about three years ago now I was on the brink and had lost my mind I found myself with a pill bottle in hand. I looked at myself in the mirror and said screw it took some water in a cup and took all 158 of the pills that were in the bottle.I went to my room and lay there until my mind wandered and my eyes closed. I never felt more peace then i did at that moment knowing all my pain and sorrow would fade away come morning. about 4am I heard screaming and yelling oh my god she is dying i was like who I walked down the hallway to see the police and medics trying to revive me I was out of my body I was dead at 4 15 they almost gave up but i started to breathe again. I died but found it wasn’t that i didn’t try to kill myself but found that theres was more I had to live for. I sometimes look back at that day and just remember how suicide wasn’t the answer but living was trust me u want to live no matter what until the day comes and it really is ur time to go.
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By 123 on Oct 1, 2009 | Reply
honestly thats what life is about over comign things, being stronger, overcoming things. and even when there are bumps in the road you need to learn that its all happening for a reason and it the end it makes you the kinda person you are. I understand things have happened but coming from a person who beleives in god he obviously let this happen to you because he thought you were a strong enough person to handle it i and i think thats what you should do handle it.
if you need more help i am really willing
email me at meagan1260@yahoo.com
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By Kevin Kurt R on Oct 1, 2009 | Reply
Sarah B is right. But you know what I’m jealous with you (Not really) because you already went through that experience yet if you surpassed that suffering then you will be stronger than anyone else. Don’t give up remember we exist on earth because earth is our test, after death, we will have judgment, that judgment will decide weather you go to Hell or Heaven and it also depends your experience on it! Also killing your self is a sin too because of being unfaithful and remember not only sorrows you bring but you also go to hell for being disobedience. Enjoy life while you can, you don’t have time for this for our Death is near, we do not know when it comes out. Read the Book of I Corinthians 13: 1-13, this is one of my favorite verse. May God Bless you!
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By Lisa M on Oct 1, 2009 | Reply
I know that there’s nothing that I can say that will take away all the hurt, lost, and misery that you are feel right now, but I can tell you that to me you are one of the most strongest man that I have ever heard from. And although you may not believe it, you are strongest, blessed and wiser than most of us. Why, because you know that value of living life as if it was your last day and how so very precious that real true love can be. So please don’t give up on teaching some of us what real, enduring, unconditionally love is all about. And no matter how hard things get, and they will. God is there with you every step of the way, even when you don’t think His there. So hold on my friend just one day at a time ok. And remember you’ve got friends out here that truly care ok, ones who has felt exactly like you do now.
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